Oh my god, I cannot stand my mother right now! I got two bad grades, in my hardest classes, on my report card and she hates me now! It's not my fault... okay well it is but she's just making me feel worse talking to people about how I don't know what's best for me and how I don't trust her. Know what? I don't know what's best for me all the time but neither does she and if I didn't trust her I wouldn't be living with her! I love my mum, I really do, but she doesn't know half the shit I'm going through! She does not know how much I cry at night, she doesn’t know how stressed I get or how much pain and misery I'm really in when I get sick, she doesn't know all the crap that I need to tell her and I can't tell her cause either she'll hate me or my family will, she doesn't know but she thinks she does! She keeps asking me why I got the grades I did why I stopped doing my work and I keep telling her why, I got over whelmed and stressed and I didn't need to add to that. I've been getting chest cramps and headaches from the stress and I don't want to get really sick or die it would suck! And I also don't want to be super obsessive over school to the point where I have no life! I don't want to be one of those kids who'll kill themselves if they get less than an A I don't want to be a person who has to live off caffeine cause they have no time to sleep, that's what I would turn into eventually it is! I want to do good in school but I also want to be a child, a teenager, I want to have fun with my friends, play video games and be on the computer! I want to write my stories!
Oh and while I'm ranting on and on I'll add to this that she does not seem to approve of my dream of being an artist. She wants me to go to Stanford instead of Ai but I don't want to go to Stanford no I don't I really don't. She doesn't want me to shoot for art because she doesn't know anyone personally who makes a living off their art work but this is what I want to do, it's my passion and my dream but she really doesn’t care about that does she? Nope, not at all.
Whatever though, whatever. I'm just gunna calm down grab my history, finish my home work and resist the urge I have to drown myself... I'm too much of a failure coward to do it anyway plus as I said, I love my mom I just wish she would try to get what I'm saying when I talk to her.

*Edit*
Wow, I really just kinda feel like a self centered bitch now... eh, what ever I need to vent some times. Sorry all!